Christmas is a time for joy

I'm feeling very friendless right now. 

Silence blankets the earth

I can't help feeling lonely tonight.
The moon arises
Something's just not right.
Somewhere out there
A warm hug is waiting.
But for now, I'm feeling lonely tonight.

I have to close my eyes and let the tears flow.
For I'm missing all my heard
Like a lost maiden doe
And no matter who comes
To my comfort and aid
On their shoulder, I will just let the tears flow.

I am so solitary now, more than before
At a time when I was younger
I'd smile at the door
For I knew there'd always be someone
Waiting at home for me
These days, though, I'm more lonely than before.

 Since I have moved on down the road
There have been trials
growing up, being bold
And everything I left
I was free to let go
But that's all that I can think of
Since I've moved down the road.

Somehow, tonight will end.

Everything remembered left naught but a dent.

The habit of life accomodates change.

All that was, now rearranged.

 

Forgotten are touches and smiles and youth.

Best friends forever and childhood truth.

Now in their place are the tv trays

The instant dinners and shopping sprees.

 

I'm going to miss the ignorance

The joy of dreams and naive bliss

The dinners together, the movie nights

The sleepover stories and small flashlights

 

I've lost it all

Until the day

I try to begin

My own family.

 

xoxox

Always.

The mood I'm in can't be defined

Can't be bottled or refined

I'm just unstable, just lost; adrift

The person I am can't be rearranged

Can't be molded or shaped; though isn't deranged

I'm just unstable, just lost; adrift

Just mistaken, just gone; forgive.

Someday I'll return to a solid state

Maybe I'll understand how much work it takes.

But now, I'm just unstable; lost, adrift

Just mistaken, just scared; forgive.

I've never seen the fairies who dance in the ferns, but I've seen their laughter in your eyes.

Frequently in life, I find myself waiting

Alone with only my thoughts

Those ideas that translate all my wanting

Into bitter loss.

 

If only I could be closer

To where my destiny may lay

If only I could fly from the nest

If only for just a day.

I've never met a fool who doesn't give good advice.

I've never met a wise man who, when deciding, thinks twice.

I've never met a sailor who didn't love the sea.

I've never met a tailor who lacked creativity.

I've never met a man who didn't have a dream.

I've never met a girl who never wanted to sing.

I've never seen a heart that refused to beat

I've never found a child who's soul wasn't sweet

The only thing I've surely found

Is a gentle lover, and a whispered sound

Words on the wind, and arms wrapped around

A love so entrancing, I can't feel the ground.

I've never met a girl who can't fly when her heart soars with her guy.

 

I've discovered how one can feel

Worn down and bitter

Disappearing is my heart's

only true ambition

I want to melt into the woodwork

And fall through the cracks

Leave me behind,

I can't find

my smile.

 

So give me space..

a wide berth or more.

Until I feel like I

have reappeared.